scratch_and_win

Yeah it's sappy but damn it"s honest

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 03:52:07 GMT

Have you ever had that feeling
When the pores under your fingernails numb
And your whole body shivers, the good shiver
When every vast and every vision of the world
Is clear
Clenching your hands you want to cry out
As pure, flawless, left with no abrasion
Happiness
Conceals no one
When the population seems closer to you
The closest you suppose at that that time
You may ever get to yourself
But every future after that becomes more revealed
As the concilation prize written on your forehead can be seen
By you
Without a tool of the masses to truly obstruct one's vision
Parallel lines escape from the temples
And reach out with little digits towards what you need
When your scattered fingertips shave carvings into your head
Cravings for only a single goal
Protrude and prod at the beating
Uneven
Center of it all
We call this.

I wrote this poem in stream of consciousness meaning that i never really took my pen off of the page as i was writing.
And basically this is how i have been feeling or maybe how i want to feel
But now i am questioning myself so i should probably just stop, have fun yawl.

-PLH...

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 04:13:57 GMT

And so i sit
Once again, along the beach
My eyes caught gazing 'cross the moonlight
But my mind is somewhere gazing
At the closest thing that i can come to thought
I took a walk today, i walked, i walked, i walked so far today
A cigarette in one hand between my index and my middle
And now i ponder all the thoughts that ths lit cigarette makes me think.

I think about all those many nights
I lay beneath you with that tender kiss between us
You and i comepletely naked
Everything between us naked
Every feeling, every truth
Every hope, i needed you.

And so i climb
The nearest street pole by the water
To get a better view of the sun
And sunday morning's coming quickly
As the waves all wash to one
I walked beside my heart last night, the ocean in my arms last night
Wish it was you that i could walk beside tonight
With each step i take i sink beneath this soggy sand
Realize my better half should be beside me once again.

I think about all those chilly nights
Between these sheets with just a tender kiss about us
You and i together naked
Everything between us naked
Every freedom, every truth
Every hope i wanted you (because you)

Well as this rainbow parts this sky above
I tilt my head and sing to the clouds
A song of a journey that brought two hopefuls together
And with my eyes closed screaming out these lines
i wonder now what i might find
As i finally end my walk alone forever.

So i finally walk
Side by side these silent streets
At 2 am nothing makes a sound but my empty feet
I cross under a stop light shining green
Its as though she's telling me
"Keep on walkin', son, you'll make it soon, your heart still's got a lot to prove"
So i keep dragging my feet waiting for the answer to release

I'm finally one step backed away from all that i can see
And one step toward my final bout with infinity

But i'm heading home
Yeah i've walked for weeks
This gravel ground's become
Tired to me...
I just picture her
So strong within
Just brings back fleeting
What i wished once to be...

So i stuggle through all those many nights
I lay beneath you with that tender kiss between us
You and i completely naked
Everything between us naked
Every feeling, every truth
Every hope i needed you.

(This is a song from the summer, and i thought maybe it might make peoples spirits rise a bit. Tell me what you think because i am not sure what i want to do with it yet.)

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 07:18:07 GMT

Time to think with a napkin at Leo's... this is what i get...

let's believe in a new kind of conquest, hopeful redemption
a happier parallel of all believers

shun yourselves and relive eternity

-PLH...

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 06:18:24 GMT

1.Your Full Name:
2. Age:
3. Favorite Color:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band:
7. Most Embarassing Moment:
8. Are you a virgin?
HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...
1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush on me/are you attracted to me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. ...with tongue?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I asked you?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
13. Do you think I'm a good person?
14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?
15.Do you think I'm hot?
16. Would you call me just because?
17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they don't involve you?
18. If you could change anything about me, would you? what would it be?
19.Would you have sex with me?
20.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

-plh...

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 04:37:51 GMT

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

I don't know what else to say other than...

this shit is right on point. haha.

-PLH...

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 04:28:23 GMT

So today i found out chain smoking 3 cigarettes in my limit...

incredibly stressful day
why do we just have days that just keep going wrong?
i want to get away for a while.

keep me and ill make you stronger
tonight she sleeps with the light off
but it flickers with her regrets
i lay down to sleep
fingers crippled in depression
tell where i need to be
simply i just just need.

-PLH...

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 03:13:22 GMT

sometimes i hate how i can feel so different so rapidly...

i feel like crap after a bad day at work, feel a little worse as the night goes on and finally as the morning sneaks up on me i feel tremendously better, and so throughout the day i feel pretty good, then night comes and i feel fucking horrible.

its amazing how your surroundings impact so strongly on how you feel.

i miss experiencing you all and i don't understand why i don't feel it, maybe its summer, maybe we've all just slipped up and don't work hard enough anymore, whatever it is i miss it.

-PLH...

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 17:39:24 GMT

Hey,
so i wake up next to a beautiful person this morning and that is very nice but then i have to go to the dentist and get 2 teeth shot up, then grinded down, then polished, then finally capped. And to top it all off i find out once i get there that i have to get 6 teeth sealed. i was in the dentist office for about 2 hours and while they were grinding my teeth they accidentally caught my gum and tore it to shreds on one side of my mouth...

So at this point as i am writing this i am just coming out of the novocaine and i am preparing for this wound in the back of my mouth to start throbbing which it has started to do, i want to hang out today, someone call me...

by the way here are my RI pics...

ah, just the start of our 12 hour trip

singing fall out boy to my sister

so this is canada? what the fuck?

haha, all up in the party house

well good morning to you too

thats right we got white boy tans

my beautiful cousin

my beautiful sister

and this is my older brother

block island ferry, can you see the island?

he looks so damn emo

ah my goofy parents

he's got sand in his head

late night hang out by the water, we did this a lot

... anyway thats all i have of that, its was fun, i accomplished some things which was good.

-PLH

p.s- my mouth hurts! someone bring me ice cream please??

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 05:18:07 GMT

so there was a party for a certain boy turning 16 this past friday, it was a blast if you weren't there it just wasn't meant to be...

black and white and grey; how classic

the attendees:

the birthday boy

the boy with the three first names

the sloth girl (aka: marianna)

sarah rogers!

abigail

omg it's mary wilcox

THOR the incredible, nice job being a rebel in blue

andrea D.

hmmm, idk

S.S.S.

scene dufty looking as scene as ever

melanie, i believe

nathan oh nathan

justin

miss becca simon, soooo cute

yes calvin was so there

N I K

and then of course there is me, demon boy.

it was a lot of fun tyler...

i hope you had a fabulous B-day partay!!!

-PLH

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 09:07:31 GMT

ok, just so you guys know i am planning on putting a ton of photos on her i have just been being lazy, it will be up soon, i promise...

-PLH

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 18:22:41 GMT

Things to do...

-get paint for car stencils
-get a label buddy
-get a new phone
-get my ipod fixed
-get a/c in my car and all its other quirks figured out
-go to nazdar and get all the supplies i need for screen printing
-get paid
-develop photos
-take photos
-start writing again
-get/see a certain cute girl
-make alana's mix CD
-work problems out
-get pics online
-clean room

etc. ...

-PLH...

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 16:23:48 GMT

so i am here in CT seeing all of the people who i left behind and for the first time ever leaving Michigan, i have people to miss,

i have a group of friends that i cherish and who hopefully feel the same about me.

there is a cute girl that i always have on my mind and who i cannot wait to see...

A BFFE who i miss but who seems to be having fun without me, good luck at all your recitals erika

a girl with massive sunglasses who is real fun to hug

a boy with a comfy hamock who i spend my days walking the earth with

this boy's significant other, who must make me pants soon

lovergirl...

and the boy who has a superhero name

everyone else you know i didn't forget about you, i just couldn't think of a long drawn out name for you.

i miss you guys, i hope you are all having fun.

and to everyone in CT i am enjoying my stay and am enjoying all of your presence

pictures will be up once i get back...

-PLH...

Fri, 27 May 2005 22:45:52 GMT

Ok so the seniors left today, and i thought i would totally be fine, but i wasn't, Paul Derochie gave me a hug and thats when it hit me. These people are really leaving and i just met them. So then i had to say goodbye to becca and that was the hardest. It just hit me so hard, so in my fourth hour i just got really sad, but we watched a movie so it was ok. So i am excited about tonight though. Its Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk Night and donnie darko, how fun. i kinda want to get drunk too, but i don't know if that would be possible. it will be fun,i am excited.

Wed, 25 May 2005 02:23:21 GMT

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